Dimensions of Consciousness

In geometry, there first comes a singularity or point. A dot we draw to represent it is merely a representation and approximation, being totally arbitrary. It Exists, but does not Experience, for there is nothing else to experience. Thus, it is not Aware of itself. A point could be placed anywhere within the matrix, or it could be the entire matrix itself, undifferentiated. This is the 0 dimension.

Next comes another point, and the space between them becomes a line. One point represents Observer and one represents Observed. Here is differentiation. There is the potential to be Aware and Experience, but may only experience the Eternal Observed, not necessarily recognizing that there is an Observer. This is the 1 dimension.

Next comes another point, and now there are Two to experience where before there was only one. The experience of Time begins, for the Observer can experience point one, Then point two. A line of Experience begins. This is the 2 dimension.

In the third dimension, Experience takes form. Distinct forms allow the Observer to experience Self as a form itself, and although it has been capable of experiencing Self in earlier dimensions, it is far easier to experience self-distinction when witnessing the experiences and self-distinction of the Other. This is the realm of the physical.

While in the third dimension, it is difficult to explain or experience the fourth dimension, as it would be difficult to explain to a triangle on a flat plane that there is an up and a down in addition to its usually experienced forward, back, left and right. As in the third dimension, we can see the whole of a two-dimensional figure, in the fourth dimension, we could see the whole of a being, not just physically, inside and out, but the entire lifetime throughout Time as well. As some earth formations can be seen in their entirety from the sky, so is an individual consciousness seen from a fourth dimensional perspective. This allows for the development of compassion, understanding and eventually wisdom.

Time itself can be experienced as a three-dimensional structure which we do not experience in our perception of space-time. Although in space-time we have traced a line forward in time, in time-space, we can experience the alternate choices that could have been made at any point.

From here, I do not have the experiences or language with which to project higher dimensions, but this is what it seems happens: The consciousness develops in a way that allows it to recognize all Other as Self. When the consciousness expands to include its experiences, the singular consciousness dissolves into an inclusion of all. After being many, the Self becomes One, or Unified, and from an awareness of Being All-That-Is, the Observer recognizes itself as the entire interdimensional sphere, which can also be seen as the first point in 0d.

I imagine a return to the non-dual undifferentiated state for the cycle to begin anew, if that's what happens, but it doesn't matter. In this cosmology, there is an infinity of possibility. Within a the sphere of existence, anything can occur. The sphere can expand infinitely outward and contract infinitely inward. Our scientists spend a lot of time trying to smash particles into finer and finer pieces without recognizing that they will always be able to divide further and expand further.

Our universe, in its various dimensions and densities of background energy is a macrocosm, of which our solar system, planets and bodies are microcosms. At the level of awareness of the universe, it also experiences itself as a microcosm of a greater macro. There is always greater expansion and finer focus in the fractal spiral of our existence in this galaxy and universe.

Although it has not been stated, it is implied that consciousness is a fundamental constituent of existence. The energy which fills space is itself conscious, from light to the gravitic tendencies of our universe, and that is what we are. Our experiences arise from this field; our consciousness shapes it. Remember that our galaxy is moving through space, and our sun is moving through the galaxy, and our planet is moving around the solar system. We have traced a line through space which we have never happened over twice. Every instance exists in space-time/time-space as its own, unique experience.

Neglect

I have taken what seems to be a meaningful step--not that it will really affect me much, but it does answer a great many questions I've lived with about my tendencies and peculiarities. Let's see.

--At the age of four/five, I had a transcendent experience where I witnessed what I called "God" while trying to imagine how big God would have to be to encompass the planet, solar system, galaxy and universe. I slipped sideways/in-between and witnessed an interdimensional sphere of sorts that was composed of funnels all expanding infinitely outward and collapsing infinitely inward. My young mind tried to explain it to my mom as a giant ball of tinfoil that was being crushed but remained the same size.

--I saw lights and faces, animals and creatures that weren't physically there often as a child, and had dreams about angels and speaking fantastical animals.

--Around age 6 or 7, my cousin was spending the night and we were sleeping on the floor because it was too hot to be much higher in the room. A quietly crackling ball of light came down the hallway, made a ninety degree turn and floated through my room at a steady pace, passing through the window. My cousin screamed, afraid, but I held her down so she didn't accidentally run into it. I yelled to my mom that there was a light in my room, and my mom said it was probably just heat lightning. I thought it was heat lightning for about ten more years until mom commented about the heat lightning on a television show. I thought it might have been ball lightning, but ball lightning doesn't make ninety degree turns that happen to coincide with doorways.

--I imagined very clearly that I had been on UFOs but not as an abductee, rather because I was their child and belonged there. In conversations, we'd be talking about different planets, and I'd say something to the effect of "well, where did you think I was from?" I looked up at the night sky and demanded to know why I was there and why I couldn't go home.

--About 80% of the stories I've ever written have had to do with the main character ending up in another world, being someone of great importance there.

--Rivermist, the trilogy I've been working on, deals with a group of souls reincarnating together, but not remembering where they came from or why. As a result, the main character is often alienated and different from those around him, finding power struggles and squabbling for worldly powers ridiculous. When he meets others from his soul group, it feels like coming home. These souls are obligated to finish a round of incarnations on each planet they visit once they've entered its physicality. It is an obligation they choose.

----the antagonist in the series describes himself as an angel of the goddess, fulfilling a sacred duty by providing hardships for others to learn from. He is one of the same group as the other characters, one of their sibling souls.

----in a later story, one of the character looks at the other and says "you know you're not from here, but you have a reason for being here."

----the character is described as a wanderer specifically because he's always on the move, trying to find some place that feels like home.

--Everyone who I have been particularly close to, who understands this obscure, strange, existential longing also has the feeling that they're here for a specific reason and that something BIG is coming in his/her lifetime.

--I've read books like "Wanderer Handbook" by Carla Rueckert and listened to countless descriptions of Wanderers--entities who have come to Earth to help out with their higher frequencies of energy--from David Wilcock, Scott Mandelker and other Law of One scholars.

And finally, after thinking for many years that perhaps I just try to excuse my feeling of difference as a defense mechanism to help explain it away better, after reading Scott Mandelker's From Elsewhere: Being E.T. in America, I've finally thought, okay. I'm a Wanderer. I've been through all this before. I've lived on other planets, and maybe I'll be able to go back there sometime. It changes nothing about how I live my life whatsoever, but it does give me that little bit of assurance and relief that makes the loneliness and longing for those I've left behind far more understandable.

Yet, it really doesn't matter, because we're all One, all souls evolving, seeking to reunify once again with the All, of which we are. Every moment has the capability to be the Eternal Now. All things have the capability to be experienced as an exquisite facet of that One.

Peace, light and love to all other selves.

What is love?

I use the concept of “Love” a lot in my thoughts, equating it with All-That-Is, but I don’t know if many people share my definition of Love.  When I mean Love, I mean experiencing unconditional acceptance of that being, be it a person, a planet, a star, a universe—yourself. 

I mean fearless, open, free expression and joy that is ever-new because the Now presents the one constant within Time: Change.  Each moment is a fresh opportunity in which to Be, and nothing is ever exactly the same.  There is movement, constant movement, and where there is no movement, there is Nothing.

When there is no fear, this is where Love dwells.  And because that which exists can neither be created nor destroyed, there is nothing to fear.  The difference between fear and Love often is simply knowing.  When I am afraid, I remind myself that it is because I have forgotten what I am, and that is not the face I wear or the feelings I experience or the thoughts I think I think.  What I am is at once Experiencer and Experienced, and yet I am neither of these things because there is no true distinction between Self and Other. 

Quantum entanglement is a property of matter in which particles that were once close to one another share simultaneous reactions even if they are moved far apart.  If we believe in the Big Bang, all particles are entangled.  If we believe they are arising from a Unified Field, then we are literally One thing, pinches in the fabric of space-time.  This is why fear is so detrimental to us.  It traces lines of imagined separation between us when in reality we are a unified whole, perfectly balanced, lacking nothing.  What we fear are literally illusions, because we are a single, dancing That-Which-Is.

When we say, in bliss, “nothing matters,” it is not a expression of despair and the sense that the self can do nothing.  It is a statement of recognition that regardless of what appears to happen in this world, the Self remains unfettered and unconditionally accepting, looking upon everything as perfect expressions of That-Which-Is.  We only see things as imperfect when we see something as other than What-It-Is.  If a plate is broken, we see it as flawed because we are thinking of it as a plate rather than a broken plate, of which it is a perfect expression.

I once saw that Love meant never saying “no.”  This is not a statement made from a state of mind in which one saw its Self or any other Self with anything to lose, with the possibility of damage or end.  This was said knowing that while the particles that compose the rock are moving about, vibrating, never the same, the rock remained the same from the outside.  Outside of time, looking at the great sea of all possibilities of That-Which-Is, Ever Was, and Ever Could Be, there is the awareness that Change is also an illusion, because the foundation upon which all motion occurs is fundamentally unaltered.  From that perspective, there is no reason to ever say “no,” because everything is just as preferable as nothing else, and it ultimately has no effect on the self. This frees us to unconditionally accept and treasure each experience as a sacred one, whether the self watches itself experience great joy or great agony.

We often seek things that are actually side effects.  We seek true love, but often don’t know how to make ourselves truly loving.  If limitation is ever sought to be placed on another being, we fall short of being truly loving.  We often mourn our losses and experience deep emotional pain as a result of our expectation’s failure to be met.  Here is another part of love:  unattachment. This is different from detachment.  If love is dependent upon the meeting of your expectations, it is not unconditional, not free.  If we experience separation from those we love, it is due to our lack of awareness of our unity.  This doesn’t have anything to do with some separate God somewhere out there.  The only Divinity you will ever know is the Self within, the Self we misappropriate thoughts and feelings to, personalities and forms.  The Self and All-That-Is are One Perfect Be-ing, unlimited, eternal, infinite.

Why is nudity considered sexual?

I have finally figured out why it is strange to me that nudity is considered sexually arousing! Finally!

All right. Imagine a society where everyone is entirely naked all of the time. People never wear clothes except maybe if they want some protection from the environment or something, or if it gets a little chilly, throw a blanket on or something. In this sort of place, people aren’t going to make a big deal out of seeing some breasts or pubic hair, because they’d be constantly surrounded by them, and kids aren’t going to be tittering among one another that “boys have penises and girls have vaginas.”

It is precisely because we have been taught that our bodies and sexualities are shameful and sinful and that they should be hidden when one is past a certain age, that we have strip clubs and issues of People magazine where the best and worst bodies of 2008 are showcased. Fear and rejection have caused dysfunction to an enormous degree, but we are so used to it we think of the customs of our culture as being just fine. Imagine explaining the purpose of a strip joint to someone from a place where the women rarely wear anything but something to hold their hair back. Chances are, they will see such an establishment as ridiculous.

Now imagine this culture without mirrors, where a person doesn’t think about his or herself in terms of a face or a form but instead as a heart and mind, of one who loves and is loved, one who does things and is things that have nothing to do with the shape of one’s features or the clothing one wears. Would these people define themselves more by their interactions with others than by the clothing style one prefers?

We are a culture obsessed with appearances because we have been taught to hide so much. And when we do reveal ourselves, we hope and pray that it’s good enough for the other person to accept, where, in a culture that hides little, certainly not one’s natural form, we are already accepted and desired just as we are—body, mind, heart, whatever.

So many of us think small tribes halfway around the world are backwards and primitive when it is we who pass great immaturity on from generation to generation and do such damage to each other we spend large portions of our lives trying to undo what we learned as children as we grow into an uncomfortable adulthood. Does this make sense? Does this work well for us?

Why should we spend so much of our time trying to appear superficially attractive? Do we really want people to be superficially attracted to us? Why are we so busy trying to hide ourselves from one another? Why are we still clinging to customs that not only do not serve us but damage our psyches? Are we, who have been made to feel inadequate, less worthy or rejected by our society’scustoms going to continue to promulgate (holy crap that’s a word. It’s even the RIGHT word!) these entirely fictitious “truths” onto ourselves and others? Are we going to enforce the separations that keep us from experiencing great intimacy when that deep connection is what we really crave deep down beneath it all?

When we continue what we have been given, we are merely replicating, not creating. When we are given the answers to our questions, we cease to seek and find and grow as a result. Machines replicate with the information they are given. Only life can expand its former boundaries and extend into unexplored expressions of itself.

I’m not saying we should all become nudists or anything of the sort. It usually doesn’t work well to compensate for one thing by going to the opposite extreme. When I behold a human form without cloth draped about it, male or female, I do admire its shape, I do admire the flow of lines and the unique symmetries or asymmetries—the human form is pleasing to whatever aesthetic we have instilled within our senses. But I do not imagine that by this show of skin I have gained intimacy, and the person has not become objectified or sexualized in my imaginings because it’s not the body I wish to experience connection with.

Study of discontentment

Today, it’s time for an inner questioning exercise. This is something I do, usually just in my head, any time I catch myself experiencing a situation of my own creation that is not serving my highest goals.

Through the repeated processes of examination, I have taught myself how to consciously control my emotional reactions to all manner of unpleasantness. It’s easier to do with pleasurable emotions, because one thought can deflate jubilation. This is how I figured out how to control emotion in the first place. This, misused, can lead to suppression, so it’s important to really reflect upon yourself honestly. No one else can do inner work for you.

I’ve been feeling rather discontent lately, and, because discontentment is something I would consider stemming from ignorance of the perfection, I’ll work through the feeling until I understand it. So, why do I feel discontent?

The most basic answer to this is usually going to be because I feel separated from All-That-Is, cut off from Divine glory. I have been oscillating between feeling pleased and loving to feeling out of sorts and rather blah. This is because my preferences are being intruded upon, which is pretty rare, since I tend to be lacking in the preference department.

1. I feel like I don’t have enough time to do what I want to do.

I got a job a couple weeks ago after about nine months of unemployment, which was good, because I had about three dollars left in my bank account and I was temporarily deferred from plasma donating because my protein count was too low. I was unable to pay all of my bills by myself, but my mom and my roommate helped me out. While having enough money to pay for everything now is awesome, it creates a time, attention and energy suck that leaves me having to stay up late to write and get up without feeling fully rested, which isn’t good for remembering dreams or practicing astral projection. Alarm clocks are horrible, horrible inventions.

Part of feeling like there’s not enough time leads me to be really disinterested in being social, and when you live with someone it makes relating to them rather precarious. I have to feel as though there is enough time for everything in order to remain free from preoccupation, so when I get home and my roommate wants to hang out, I put aside what I want to do, which is write for twelve hours until I have to go back to work. Another issue having this job brings up is:

2. My life feels horribly mundane.

Jobs do not go anywhere. Unless you’re ambitious about some sort of work-related goal, I guess. The main thing I like about my job is that I help people find what they want. Seriously, that’s what I like about it. I move grocery inventory about a store, and the best part is helping people out. I also really like looking for things on the shelves and finding them. There’s a short moment of “ah! There it is!” every time I find something new. The other day I was stocking tea, and I looked at a particularly lovely box design and realized “oh, that’s me, pretending to be tea.” And the tea became a marvel to behold. That’s not mundane. I am constantly surrounded by opportunities to experience greater consciousness and awareness, so that’s something profound and enjoyable.

The reason I am working, however, is to pay my bills and save up to move. Living towards something in the future is decidedly uncomfortable for me. I really enjoy being in school, and I’m no longer in it. For the several months after I graduated and sought work, I grew enormously in leaps and bounds. My inner peace and understanding multiplied at a fantastic rate. It was awesome. Now, I read on my lunch breaks and write in all other free time that is not consumed with socializing.

It might actually be the socializing that makes my life seem mundane, actually. I do not share moments of amazement and wonder with other people, and it feels a bit empty. Socializing is full of distraction, from movies and video games to idle banter. The things I really enjoy is when we get into a conversation about spiritual stuffs, but it comes so very rarely, and at this point, I feel like I am constantly repeating myself. What else is there to say, though? We are one. We are a glorious ever shifting life-being. Not many people seem to get it. Or they understand it logically but haven’t experienced it to really grok the implications.

Perhaps it is not so much that life feels mundane as much as it feels lacking in something that isn’t vital, but it would revitalize me. I may live too much for other people, and I don’t mean that in a “oh I’m always volunteering and helping out etc. etc. etc.” because I don’t. But I do put down everything I feel is important to me at any moment to help someone else out, unless what feels important is another person, and I let other people interfere with my natural reactions.

For example, today a guy’s car stalled while he was trying to turn. My instinct was to run up and help him push his car back, out of the middle of the street, but my roommate was with me and I went with my roommate’s preference rather than my own, which was to keep walking on by. I think it was a valuable opportunity that I missed out on, and it illustrates for me all the other opportunities I’m missing because I defer to someone else’s preferences. To live for the One Self, expressing its unity, is quite extraordinary, and if I am alive, I wish for my life to be extraordinary.

3. I feel increasingly isolated.

This is mostly because I’ve shifted so much in such a short amount of time. Every person in my life is a truly wonderful being, but some conversations and “entertainments” have become rancid to my tongue. Talk of violence or disrespect of any kind, even meant in jest, actually disturb me, when not so long ago, I would have joined in. It’s just not who I am anymore, yet I can still see it as being perfect in each moment, as an expression of Infinity. This greatly increases my ability to accept it and love its existence without shunning its form. Without contrasts, we would be far less sure about Who/What we are at any given moment. We define ourselves by these comparisons.

By my feeling isolated (although I understand that I am never anything but Everything), it shows that I am not realizing my unity. It’s easier to see the divine in a stranger sometimes than it is in someone you know fairly well, because with someone you know well, the ego and “me-me-me” feeling takes up a lot of your perspective at any given time.

These three discontentments all come from the same feeling, that there isn’t enough of this or that, which is simply not true. Not enough time? I wrote over 50,000 words in the month of October, fifty of those seventy pages in the last two weeks alone. Not enough wonder? It’s up to me to seek the amazement, the wonder, and the sacredness in every moment. Not enough connection? There is nothing but connection. There is no use in focusing on how alone I sometimes feel, especially when I am doing nothing to alleviate that feeling. I’ve been kicking around the idea for a weekly meditation/discussion group oriented toward a Spirituality of Oneness, that instead of rejecting any religion, would embrace it, and I’ve been thinking about it for well over a year, but I’ve done nothing about this idea, and I don’t think the idea came from my conscious self. How better to meet those with similar interests than to create a space for them to gather?

It does not matter that in the past I have been quiet and introverted. The time for apathy has come to an end.

The graduated layers of reality

At the ultimate level, there is nothing happening. It could even be incorrect to say there’s only one being, because that one being would be no being, all of everything is nothing. On the levels at which we are, there seems to be a lot going on. It corresponds with the metaphor of the rock. From the outside, it looks like a pretty constant form, just sitting there, nothing going on. But at a very small level we can see that there is no stillness. Molecules and atoms are constantly shifting about, vibrating, spinning, all that.

What truly exists is unknowable, yet it is all there is to know.

There are multiple layers of existence, different planes populated with entities and we are evolving. All things are evolving, but the wheel itself remains unchanged. At each level the truth appears to be different. We adopt systems when they are useful, but we grow beyond them. Each may contain truth, but none of them can be perfect truth as long as there is a distorted mind attempting understanding. We must not fear to leave behind the systems which no longer serve us, for they are approximations and theories, understandings limited within a certain framework.

Here in the world we are currently in, we may say things like “might is right” or “survival of the fittest.” And these approaches have served us, but our clinging to them hinder us from evolving to a higher stage, in which we make ourselves strong by empowering others, in which we recognize every being as equally deserving as we, rendering the idea of “deserving” anything into an absurdity. To cling to our old ideas is to ignore the rising level of our consciousness, or attempt to bring it down a peg or two.

Yet at another level, there is nothing anyone needs to do, ever. In this sense, we are all free, while others find this idea to be a curse, leaving them afloat in a sea of limited potentials. We do not need to hang on to anything. We can let go of all things and simply be.

2012: The hullabaloo

Whether the Mayan calendar ends on December 21, 2012 or February 19, 2013, here's what the hullabaloo is about, as I understand it.

As the Law of One material goes, for channeled material, it pretty much rocks the house. Channeled from 1981-84 by Carla Rueckert, Jim McCarthy and Don Elkins, the Law of One material is a series of questions and answers spanning multiple sessions and five books. The entity Rueckert channeled called itself Ra (yes, the original Ra of the Egyptians before it got all twisted about and reinterpreted). Ra describes itself as a sixth density being, and describes the densities as what some would call dimensions (I find this a faulty definition of dimension).

Ra describes the structure of our galaxy (or Logos) as having a structure similar to an octave in music or color. Our planet Earth is currently undergoing a third density experience, but is in the process of transitioning to fourth density. What is meant by "density" is that the aether underlying physical reality has a sort of background radiant field, and the background field has a differing vibratory rate in different places in space. Earth (and our solar system) is moving into space that is more energetically dense than the space we are leaving behind.

It seems as though the transition we are undergoing, which is causing NASA observed changes in our solar system (everything's getting hotter and brighter, not just the Earth), will be complete at the end of 2012/beginning of 2013. This happens to coincide with the fact that the Earth will be aligned with a "path to the center of the galaxy." What will happen when this transition is complete depends on who you ask. Some folks think that we'll be more harmonious and that no big upheavals or cataclysms are coming, and some folks think it'll be a big deal like the rapture. According to prophecy, we're looking at the birth of the next world or sun or the end of the Kali Yuga.

In third density reality, we are a jumble-mix of polarizations. We're male and female, heterosexual, homosexual, bisexual, generous, miserly, loving, controlling, vengeful, considerate and so on. Most of us haven't decided on one important issue, even after however many lives we’ve had here, one that Ra breaks down into service to others (STO) or service to self (STS). You can work for the benefit of everyone, or you can work for the benefit of yourself, which usually includes some attempt at controlling others to give you what you want.

It's not like this in the higher densities. The entities are divvied up depending on their polarity. If you're 51% service to others or higher, you're fourth density positive, and if you're 95% service to self, you're fourth density negative. This isn't to say one is better than the other, any more than the positive and negative poles of a magnet are any better than the other. It doesn't matter. When you hit 6D, it's the density of unity. There are no more polarities. Entities go to places they are harmonious with. Fourth density negative beings go to a fourth density negative planet. Simple.

Fourth density, both positive and negative, is about love. Love of others above self or love of self above others. You don't have to be perfect at it. You only have to be 51% STO or 95% STS for 4D. The reason the STS percentage is so high is because 4D- is a pretty difficult thing to deal with. You have to be ridiculously self-serving (98%) to get to 5D, after all.

I can't say that I believe any one interpretation or prediction, although, honestly, I am leaning towards David Wilcock's and Drunvalo Melchizedek's camps in thinking that this shift is going to change everything drastically, and I do mean drastically.

In the Ra material there’s a little process known by the humbling term of “harvest.” This is where the shift happens. There have already been two harvests in the past on Earth, and in the first one, no one was harvested. In the second there were those who were able to be harvested, but they remained on Earth to help out. Recognizing how ridiculously few people were ready to be harvested to the next density, sixth, fifth, and fourth density beings volunteered to go to Earth in attempt to help out. There are tons of them on Earth now, a few hundred million or so. These entities, being in third density, which is subject to forgetting prior experiences, are remembering what they are, some more than others. The goal here is to assist others in polarization to increase the harvest, or simply to be here to support the planet as it goes through the transition.

If an entity is not polarized at the end of the planet’s three cycles in third density, then the entity will have to reincarnate on a third density planet. The end of this cycle is different from the others because the Earth itself is shifting to 4D. The planet would have to be moved to accommodate beings with a vibratory frequency disharmonious with the space Earth will soon be occupying for those souls to remain with the Earth, which isn’t going to happen.

The main thing to keep in mind is that nothing horrible is going to happen, not while we’re on the planet. What you are cannot be harmed, for you are the infinite creator, eternal and whole. That’s what the journey is all about. The densities are just graduations of God-realization, and the higher the density the closer to recognizing your identity as the divine you are. In reality, nothing is happening at all, and there’s only one of us here.